Refuge in Humor !!

So, I am back after a hiatus, the last 40 odd days were mostly spent doing nothing at all but some serious over thinking. They say; “An idle mind is the devil’s workshop” and rightly so, the devil inside me had been at work, churning out nothing but shit. Ideally, an idle mind thinks too much, but here the heart too had been idle, so the collaborative effort of two idle compartments was something that can’t really be put into words. From planning to set up an enterprise to committing homicide, these were just a few thoughts that ran within, but with no consequential result. The only thing that perhaps came out of all this was – Laughter!! Self-apathy replaced by self-depreciating humor, and the effect has been magical.
To be able to dig deep into the miseries of life and unearth humor is something not everyone can, and to laugh off at one’s self is even harder, but then I look back and find out: this has been an innate trait of mine, to be able to mock myself while others laughed. From being called a lunatic to talking about certain escapades (that others would be ashamed of), I had made people laugh; and this had to work; work in my favor, in pulling myself out. I needed my own hand and to an extent had to get rid of the tendency of being too dependent on others who were trying to infuse laughter in my miserable life.
Life had always been complicated, if it wasn’t, I was making it seem so; too much of shit all around and too many people covering up their nostrils while advising me to cover up my bum. Little did they realize that they were the ones who were littering shit all around. But, that is again me trying to be serious, I know I can’t afford to, I need to tickle my own funny bone while others are busy trying to make things hard for me, at this stage I do realize that; life’s a dick: can get hard at times for no reason at all, and I laugh again. This realization that life can’t be taken too seriously has been amazing.
Humor is serious business, not everyone is blessed with the talent of finding it in everything around them. Moreover, people, these days tend to get swayed by general opinion; humor requires some amount of intellect to create and to understand. The ongoing tussle between what is to be tolerated and what isn’t doesn’t help either, a joke is a serious thing and never have things been so serious. And, that is when self-depreciation makes its way, and I feel blessed that I have no reservations at making people laugh at me. Blessing in disguise indeed!!
This revelation has been nothing short of a divine intervention in my life, Should I hold a mike and tell my tale of sucking at things?? Why not give a dose of laughter to the already Oh so!! serious people at my own expense?? And, deep within lied the treasure, my life had enough content, it had enough drama to be mocked and ridiculed. I was finally doing what I should have done long ago – flipped the bird at my miseries and set it free.
P.S: Life gets better the moment you realize the joke has always been on you.